THE SADDEST OF THE SAD…..
Have you ever been somewhere that made you uncomfortable? A place you never thought people would treat you badly? Call you names, tell you that you didn’t belong? Cuss at you? And then silence? No one spoke to you? I have. I AM. It is the worse feeling. It is something that has never happened to me in my life. I have never been treated or talked to like this. It’s hurtful. And even more so from family. You wait for the time to end when you can leave and go home. It’s so far away. The only thing that keeps me from falling apart is the thought that in a few days I will be in my own home. We can get our lives back to normal. The fact that I won’t have to see these cruel, heartless people again. It’s a sad thing when you go to help and no one wants you there. And it’s obvious. I guess I’ve been lucky all these years, being in the 4th quarter of my life. Never shed so many tears. At times crying so hard I couldn’t catch my breath. I thought why are people so mean? Do they live their lives like this? Every day? Family? If it wasn’t for the love of my life I would have left 2 days after we arrived. Being hurt each and every day? I wouldn’t wish this feeling on anyone. I hope that someday I can forget this. It brings tears when I think about it. And that is more than I want. Perhaps, my heart will heal and this feeling will be a distant memory……..the saddest of the sad.