A LIFE SILENT
Tomorrow is my baby’s birthday. He will be 42. I haven’t seen him in over 7 years. It’s heartbreaking when a Mother can be so close to a child and then one day it just stops. I cry each and every day. I miss him more than words can say. I look at old pictures, touch them and wish he were here with me. I miss the talks; the hugs. I miss the smile on his face. The sound of his voice. No one could ever know what that feeling is like unless you go through it. Knowing he is so close yet so very far away. Loosing him is hard enough but when he left my grandchildren left also. Beautiful children not knowing how much their grandparents love them. How much we miss them. They don’t know about the holidays, birthdays, valentine’s day, Easter, Thanksgiving……how empty those days are. How the house is so silent. No laughter. A house that was once so full of happiness is now just empty. I pray that someday there will be a reason for this. A cause that will never make any sense. A time lost that can never be brought back. Years that are gone. So many things missed. A life now that is cold, empty and silent.